Saturday, October 25, 2014


"Work is against human nature. The proof is that it makes us tired."
Michel Tournier

 "Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life."
Pablo Picasso

This story shall the good man tell his son;
And Crispin Crispian shall ne'er go by,
From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remembered —
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he today that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne'er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition:
And gentlemen in England, now a-bed,
Shall think themselves accurs'd they were not here;
And hold their manhoods cheap whiles any speaks
That fought with us upon St. Crispin's day.
Shakespeare's Henry the Fifth

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Character Diary Entry 1

(Diary Entry for a Character in my Film Script)

October 22, 2014
Saw Curry Man near the library today. He gets to flit about campus unencumbered by the pain of being violated while I hide behind a column attempting to control a panic attack, asshole. The world is so screwed up— victims have only two choices, either pursue justice with a vengeance or let it go. Either I turn my life over to revenge, or I walk away in shambles? I feel so stuck. What the hell kind of choice is that? 

Everyone seems to be tired of hearing my story. Swamp Thing says I deserved to be raped since I was dumb enough to get drunk. That kind of thinking needs to be challenged. However, I’m so down in a hole right now, I opted to just walk away. 

At the library, I googled myself. I’m in the top ten which sucks. Good thing I’m not interested in a military career, I come across as unstable. The more likely impact is that my future spouse will never hook up with me because he’ll read about all of the shit I’ve been through and opt to never meet me. Great, Curry Man has fucked me four times now, and  somehow I still keep thinking I'm a virgin. 

Will I carry what Curry Man did to me forever, or can I find a way to let it go? Truth is, it keeps popping up in my psyche like a bad horror flick, eek eek eek. What does it take to banish something  forever? I keep thinking about the Truth and Reconciliation Commission in South Africa-- we all just want someone to listen to us tell our story. 

I want him to listen to my story. Maybe that would help me let it go? Maybe Swamp Thing needs to listen to my story? Maybe I just need to have someone acknowledge that I am a victim which seems completely absurd to me on one level. What the hell is the point in being the victim? Maybe, maybe that’s my problem. While I’m busy seeking sainthood in the eddy of victimhood, the river of life is flowing around me. 

Damn it all, somebody throw me a rope, I want back in the river.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Film Food for Thought

I happily indulged in brain food last night which was particularly refreshing after having spent time with a loved one at the hospital. It is also soul food without the sauce. It's the kind you internalize, turn over in your mind, and think upon when you are driving down a long stretch of highway.

Julian Doyle, Editor, Director, and Friend of the College Town Film Festival, brought The Life of Brian (1979) to the Athena Theater last night. He talked about how Monty Python took a serious book, the bible, and looked for the comedy in it. Professor Steve Hays encouraged the audience to wrestle with different ways of seeing as a way to develop critical thinking skills. Reverend Rob Martin  brought insight into the movie and bible stories with commentary including what did happen to the leper who was cured and thus out of a livelihood?

Nourishment awaits you, three more days of the film fest. Get online, check out the schedule. You need it.

Photo credit: John Paul Sullivan

CTFF OU Schedule

Friday, October 10, 2014

Still Not Asking for It

FRC, Fuck Rape Culture, held a rally at Ohio University today. The woman wearing her brassier in the interview photo below is dressed this way to bring awareness to the concept, "Still not asking for it."

The woman interviewing her came down from Kent State because there is not an active FRC type of group there. 

As students marched up Mill Street, a few hecklers spouted off from distant balconies. The FRC leader muscled her bullhorn and led the marchers with a steady stream of chants like, "Stop rape culture now." Traffic waited on the marchers as did the rain. At the base of the Civil War monument, achievements were reviewed and more was asked for the coming year,  among them was ongoing funding for SAP the Sexual Assault Prevention program-- the five year grant funding runs out this year.

No one wore duct tape that I noticed, but it was available.

Bathroom Stall Adventures

Last year for the College Town Film Festival I connected a visiting artist with an Ohio University professor. The artist, a writer with a film made about her,  was to visit the professor's class. However, she had a bout of self-doubt, "I'm not a college graduate so why should I talk to college students in an English course?" She hid in the bathroom.

That bathroom happened to be in the English building, Ellis Hall, the home of the "feminist bathroom." After reading the many supportive messages inked onto the stall walls, she went to the class and confessed what had happened. The class then took a field trip to see the bathroom wisdoms for themselves.

This year in support of the College Town Film Festival, coming October 15-18, I was dropping off materials in Ellis Hall when I found myself (unaware of where I had stumbled) in the said bathroom. My stall alerted me to check out the Sexual Assault Prevention (SAP) program across the road in the McKee House. One of the films coming on Friday, October 17 at 7:00 pm at the Athena, is "How to Loose Your Virginity," so SAP seemed like a good place to drop off a few programs.

from the Feminist Stall in Ellis Hall at OU

I trekked over, passed out a few programs, and learned all kinds of interesting things. I asked how the center was funded. It is through a grant which was applied for, "about five years ago." I applaud OU for having someone (Susanne Dietzel was mentioned) put this kind of resource into place as it shows forward thinking considering the press on sexual assaults on campuses nationwide. This afternoon, I'm headed to the Fuck Rpe Culture rally (4:00 pm Jeff Hill).  If the name of the group offends you, read this. 

Graffiti is where the disenfranchised can find a voice. If a mark on the wall of a stall can make a positive difference, I bet you can too.

Friday, October 3, 2014

That Moment...

"You know that moment before a party when you and your significant other hang back in the car and talk about your party strategy?" asked my classmate. I was tempted to be honest and say no, but instead I nodded assuredly.

I was given a scene in a classmate's film project with the instruction to only say one line while another classmate went off on a Woody Allen-esque tirade. I learned a few things:

1. Doing five takes with four people in a car on a rainy day quickly steams up the windows.

2. When your passenger is an improv actor that says anything and everything, the preparty strategy session can be hilarious.

3. Boys always go for the French girl.

4. I realized, in real life, I rarely drive to parties.

5. Either I live in a small walkable town, or I don't have so many parties to attend.

6. Creating work is fun.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Count Killo-Watt is on the Loose

Upgrade Athens is focused on reducing Athens County energy consumption while competing to win the Georgetown University Energy Prize. Participating with the Public Relations Committee, it was mentioned that a cartoon character would make a great story teller for capturing children's interest, Count Killo-Watt was born.

Count Killo-Watt wants to suck energy! Where does he lurk? In the clothes dryer? The dish washer? How do you combat him? Superheroes alert! We need Sergeant Weather Stripper! Calling Madam Eco to the rescue!

Somebody help me here.

Spreading the word-- Athens City Sustainability Commission Meeting has a public meeting scheduled on Wednesday Oct. 15 at 6 PM at the Athens Community Center. This is a brainstorming session to hear from the community about what goals, objectives, and strategies we should build into a sustainability plan for the City of Athens. We hope you can make the meeting and please spread the word. There will be light refreshments and lots of good folks like you there!